I caught myself trying to fool me again today.  I was contentedly following a train of thought when another thought popped up - right in the middle of it - and said, “You know you’re just kidding yourself.  Why are you telling yourself  that?”

I was caught in the act of trying to delude myself.  Even though the issue that I was thinking about was something I’ve been through over and over in my life, and even though I generally have taken the easy way out every other time I have been faced with the exact same issue, here I was, going to do it again!  Lucky for me that the aware part of me was totally awake and vigilant. 

Sometimes  we  humans make things so complex.  We can rationalize, deny, hide, and deflect any feeling that we don’t want to deal with.  This, in turn, causes a build-up of undealt-with baggage that we carry around with us, making our paths hard and our relationships with others complicated, at best.

I am grateful that this time I caught myself in another attempt at self-delusion.  I know that if I can do that often enough,  I will become more self-aware and confident,  because I will be able to say that I truly do know who I am.